#15 Counting The Blessing

Everytime, always. Allah is the most gentle to me. He knows I could not handle sudden loss, so He let my mother introduced the idea of death early on during my childhood. He knows I am not strong like other people He tested with tragic. He let me do and explore my way first before I finally see and learnt and returned to His path. He nurtured me around the warmest friends and families available. He will always be the Most Loving, Ar Rahman, Ar Rahim. The one that know me most, the one that always be there everytime I pray iyyaka na'budu wa iyyaka nasta 'een. No other joy could defeat the joy of having a God.

#14 Bad Habit this Blog Owner is waging war with ( her bad self)

Am receiving complaints from friends, and latest, my mother!

#13 The Caring Society

I am sure by now, everyone has heard about the 15 years old teenager with Cerebral Palsy. He was found locked in his own home with the condition one could not fathom the logic of reason for one that is living with his own mom. The mother is a single parent. The father of the teenager has been missing and does not care for the kid.

Let us revise back the points in our Prophet's SAW last ever speech.

1. To avoid riba
2. To protect the women
3. To feed and cloth the people in need.
4. Do not tell lies
5. Do not take things from others.

What has been done is done. I too could not help to judge the mother, the neighbor, the friends, the family. May Allah forgive me for being judgemental. May Allah forgive us if this situation is a result in our negligence to take care of point no (2) and point no (3).

Lets take action of the points and spread the words around as the Prophet SAW strongly reminded us to do so. Lets avoid riba. Lets start to friend the next door neigbor. Lets be an ear to friend's and colleagues issues and help them to find solutions.

Lets take action with our own hands and feet as for when we are to be questioned by Allah later, I am sure we will never answer with "it is the mother's responsibility" or "the government is not doing enough!" or "I already commented in facebook!". The hands and feet are going to answer the question for us.

#12 The Curious Case of Panda in Putrajaya

Panda coming to Malaysia, why am I not really excited about it?

After careful analysis, here I present the reason behind it - What Panda has, I already have.

1. Dark circle around the eyes - checked.

2. Shy and elusive - checked

3. Hate noises - checked

4. Physically round, plump, no curves - checked

5. Spent 40% of the day not moving and sleeping - checked

6. Live alone for most of the life - checked

I like Puma best, especially the female. 

What Puma has, and I dont have  am on my way to achieve it :

1. run fast

2. Eat accordingly. Puma hunts once a day, 

3. Secretive

4. Strong and cute

5. Live in the mountains

6. Very protective of their cubs

7. Strong

8. Fearsome

#11 Emak, Bekas Guru

Emak telefon. Assalamualaikum. Waalaikumsalam. Da, Mak nak beritahu tiga perkara ni. Ok. Pertama, sekian,sekian. Kedua, sekian,sekian. Dan paling terakhir, sekian, sekian. Wah, ringkas dan padat! Emak ketawa. Mak nak beritahu tu je. Ok. Emak menamatkan panggilan.

#10 Nerd Kind of Things

Bold the ones you've read COMPLETELY, italicize the ones you've read part of. Watching the movie or the cartoon doesn't count. Abridged versions don't count either.

BTW, according to the BBC if you've read 7 of these, you are above the average.


1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkein
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter Series - J.K. Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty-Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Ubervilles-Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy - Douglas Adams – the whole series
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding 
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnights Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Inferno - Dante
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madam Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince- Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

total read : 22/100.

#9 Perahu Kertas

menoleh pada masa
belum pandai membaca dan berkira-kira
belum pandai memacu pena
Tapi kupunya sekeping kertas
kulipat dengan hati putihku
menjadi perahu
bila rintik hujan datang
kulayarkan pusing rumah

pada masa
belum pandai membaca dan berkira-kira
belum pandai memacu pena
sebuah hati putihku
tertulis kisah perahu kertas

membanding pada masa
kupunya lebih dari sekadar pena dan kertas
dan hatiku tidak tentu putih kelabu
kutulis banyak kisah
kulayarkan pusing dunia

pada masa
aku pandai membaca dan berkira kira
ku kira kira kisahku yang banyak
aku rindu hatiku yang putih
melayarkan perahu kertas

#7 Third day of Running

A squirrel darted pass me and the morning sky was gloomy. I was running at this hill park where I could get an eagle view of the city I live from afar. As I ran, the cool breeze speed along with me - a friendly companion - soothing my face and soul with its fresh moist. The birds pecking the grass at the trackside scampered away as I trodded on the jogging track. I felt fast like i was in an ironman suit ( when in real time I was as fast as Spongebob's pet snail, but lets not dwell further on that matter).

This is why I like running eventhough nobody runs in the family. This is the reason why I would still returned to the track after many attempts and injuries. Running is all about overcoming your own limitation. Running outdoor, I also have this opportunity to dwell in my individual self, the beautiful world, and the Creator of us. After every running session, I always returns to civilization with refreshed soul.

Running is all about individual. However, as a female runner, I need to consider about my safety. Luckily enough there are many people jogging at the park. Saw this man around 50-ish jogging in the pace as fast as mine. He looked like a kind retired grandfather who has received bad results on his health report book last week and decided to start the exercise regiment this week. Marking him as my 'guard', I kept a stone throw distance and jogged behind him all the time.

Overall, for today I improved my pace time and did this :

4 minutes run, 1 minute walk
7 rounds

#6 Second Training

Was drifted away and away from the training schedule due to Eid celebrations (alasan!) I only started the second training today.

Today's running plan :
3 minutes run
1 minute walk
10 rounds

Except for a gorgeous morning, I didnt met any other running soul - however, I passed on many cyclists. Okay, not. Correction. Many cyclists cycle past me.

While passing a row of bungalows, saw this persian cat that was about to answer the nature's call. When I autobeeline to him, he meowed and was very friendly when I patted his head. This is probably a very mundane thing to report to you, but is a very important thing to me. My alarm hitting me to start running, i cant stay longer to pet that gorgeous being. Bye bye cat. I hope I ll see you again in next two days. If you happen to have a single, handsome owner, drag him along next time.

Moving forward, about 4 weeks left before the event....

#5 -When Muslims Work Together

Selepas mendengar kuliah Nouman Ali Khan tajuk "When Muslims Work Together" di bayyinah.com.

Kesimpulan :
- akan ada banyak pecahan pecahan persatuan untuk menggerakkan satu ideologi masing-masing. Tidak semestinya bersatu bawah satu persatuan sahaja.

- setiap persatuan mestilah tidak memperlekehkan usaha persatuan yang lain.

- setiap persatuan mesti bantu membantu dan acknowledge usaha persatuan lain.

Sebenarnya terfikir kita masih perlu banyak komunikasi dialog dengan cara yang teratur ( coursera.com ada menawarkan kursus percuma : how to think ad argue ).

Disebabkan kegagalan kita berkomunikasi, banyak perkara hal rakyat yang tidak dapat diuruskan dengan baik. Contoh semasa : harga minyak.

Bila harga minyak naik, perkara pertama yang kita buat ialah pilih kem dulu. Awal-awal lagi kita dah set kem sebab nak standby gaduh dengan kem lawan.

Perkara pertama yang kita cari ialah apa reaksi pihak lawan seolah-olah pertandingan.

Susah nak cari penyokong kerajaan yang tidak setuju kenaikan harga minyak atau pembangkang yang tak kisah haega minyak naik.

Sebab kita dah pilih kem awal awal, kita main setuju sajalah dengan apa yang kerajaan buat dan anggap orang lain tak betul. Sebab kita dah pilih kem awal-awal kita main bangkang sajalah apa yang kerajaan buat.

Akhirnya tiada penyelesaian pun.

Dulu saya pun macam ini juga. Sekarang saya sedang belajar untuk tidak memilih sebarang kem, tidak memandang buruk dan cepat bersangka buruk, tidak menyerang peribadi, menjauhi sarcasm. Menjauhi perbualan-perbualan yang ada disebut 'macai' di dalamnya. Ini adalah perjalanan yang paling payah. Semoga Allah bantu kita semua.